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I'll make a big feature of the best works of this summer (photomanips, of course!) but actually DA doesn't work.. i can't barely write my DA's journal title!
However, if everything will be ok, i'll start this year to study chinese
i'll probably change also my city if it will be too heavy to live here and study in another city. I'll remain in Italy, of course, but i'm too happy to change something of my life
I've suffer, lose friends, and so on..but now i hope to restart again my life and to have good luck
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Hope summer has been great and I wish you luck in your studies if you start them
yes this summer was great
i hope the same for you!
I wish to learn quickly the language
well... it hasn't been THAT great and now I'm on sick leave for almost commiting suicide.. and I'm really depressed so I'm not on dA so much... just sleeping and wandering around like a zombie with my sis watching me like a hawk so I don't do anything.
I was in the hospital for a week before the let me go home after trying, but I'm not allowed to be alone and if I shower or so I need to leave the bathroom door unlocked so my sis can walk in to make sure I don't do anything.
But I can see my sis is really stressed from all this and she hardly sleeps because even though I take sleeping pills to even sleep, she feels like "what if I wake up and do something while she sleeps". So I feel crap for putting her through this, but it was even worse at the hospital, because it was so easy to forget family and friends and my cute kitten Ichigo, and so it was easier to believe that killing myself is the right thing. That's the only reason they let me go home.
So, my summer broke down kinda =/
but why you feel depressed?
happen something? i'm so sorry dear
please, don't do anything..
think to your parents, to your sis that helps you, they can die too..
Nothing has really happened, it's just me who always puts too much on my poor shoulders and after a while I can't keep up =/
I think of them and they are my lifeline right now, but at the same time I feel even worse because I feel I put them through so much pain and stress beeing like this... I just feel like such a crappy and pathetic person =/
it's normal have the sensations of anxiety, trust me!you're not pathetic, you have just this moment of..sadness?
we're human being, we're afraid of the future, especially in these years of economic problems, unemployement, and so on..
i've passed almost 2 years thinking how much i was useless..
but after i think of my family, how much they can suffer if i run away or worst.
I think about you as a friend of mine, i speak about with my italian friends, think about people that love you even with the distance that separate us
I feel once again that I have to keep moving and that I have to put good use of my own problems, to save me and others.
Now that I might get a sick pension since I might never get well again, since I allready take the only medicine that works on me that is leagal here in Sweden. And now it has stopped working, though they will try putting the intake of it higher and see if I get well, but if I don't.. I just hope that I will be well enough to be let to live with my sister or so. And not live on the hospital for the rest of my life. I really hate swedish law right now and that they think that it is well what they have put up for people with my diagnosis.
The hard part is to find reasons to live, especially now.. I really don't feel like going through this hell once more.
I think of you as a friend too, one more reason to stay alive and try to make things better
I really wish that I could meet you and tell myself that distance isn't a problem if you just want to. And the same with life, it isn't a problem if you only see the future and that maybe there will be a glimmer of light in the dark
I wish you all the best!